How to be a Gay Divorceé?

I’ve always been slightly haunted by a 1952 novel Excellent Women. The main character is a modest, unassuming woman in post-WWII London. She’s an excellent woman, always on hand to help with all the church stuff. She has a modest little life, unrequited love, and all these expectations heaped on her as the nation recovers […]

My new tattoo honors 40 cats and dogs I’ve loved over 50 years

My first tattoo appeared in December – a tattoo of my blog logo. It is locate don the inside of my right forearm near my elbow. It faces me to remind me of something I’ve accomplished – a way that I’ve contributed. Also, it reminds me that I love this work. The inkling for another […]

Coping with a life invasion stalker.

It takes a certain degree of cruelty to kick someone when they are down. Not a tentative poke with the tip of your shoe. Not even a big, powerful kick to the abdomen that hurts, but is soon over. Rather a series of small to medium kicks, similar to the thud of a bored child […]

Today, I Accomplished All of These Things

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How I Spent My Summer Day

First off, I realized I wrote a blog post about August 26 on August 26, but referenced August 27. It doesn’t change the tone or tempo of the post. A little embarrassing, but let’s try to look at it as a symptom of the trauma . OR a sign the trauma isn’t as bad as […]

Essay: I published 400 memorials for victims of anti-trans violence

Content Note: anti-trans violence, death, erasure, memorials, impact, trauma. This post contains  descriptions of researching and documenting the deaths of trans neighbors. It is one person’s perspective, the perspective of a cisgender white lesbian who has been writing memorials since 2013.  400 was the number of deaths that caused me to stumble, to doubt myself, […]

Perchance, Manchester house is the solution to my problems?

There’s a house on my block that was recently renovated, not restored. It has been on and off the market. The current asking price is $284,000. The house is 1300 square feet with 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, and an office. Plus living room and kitchen. I could store the entire pet food pantry in one […]

You gave me strength to stand alone again. To face the world out of my own again

photo of a bllack laptop with a multicolor flower as the screensaver

This weekend, a friend gifted me with a new laptop. They bought it for me when my previous laptop died. I’ve been using the previous-previous laptop to that one, but it is a hot mess after years of churning out blog posts and social media content. It still works well enough compared to the one […]

What ‘after the holidays’ really means

Last year was a nice holiday season for me – I felt hopeful, comforted, and valued. This year? Not so much. I thought the holiday in tandem with my blog’s 20th anniversary would create lots to celebrate. I was wrong. A 20 year milestone is not resonating with local media outlets that typically jump for […]

If you smile through your fear and sorrow

I went to the dentist last week, abuzz with anxiety. This weirdly ended up okay because I just had one cavity and everything else was fixable. Except one bad tooth that has to be uninstalled. Second chances are always important. The dental cleaning weakened the bad tooth and it really hurt. I called an oral […]