She’s gonna be alone alone for the holidays

Chirstmas tree

This year, I will celebrate Christmas day alone. Like many other people do. So I’ve been determined to pick quality merry time in with my friends and on my own. I saw the PSO Holiday Pops, visited the Christmas Village and Belsnickel at Old Economy Village, spent time just doing typical lunches and what not. […]

A Silent Christmas Might Be Lonely At First

holiday serving tray

Christmas is coming. Over the weekend, I realized that I am in for a lonely Christmas Day. I’ve had plenty of festive activities with friends, some that I hope will extend through the ‘winter break’ period up to New Years. Still to come is the Holiday Pops Christmas concert, a trip to I Made It! […]

Talking about being programmed hasn’t destroyed me either

Content Notes: sexual abuse, enablers, stigma I published an intense post earlier this week. It was planned with care. I wanted to make specific points about the impact of grooming and programming, not vomit my entire story. It is unclear if I’ll ever do that. Yep, it is that bad. I worked with my therapist […]

Today’s theme was Maiden, Maven, Crone. Also I’m a Microinfluencer

Today has been a day. I awoke to find this lovely article in the Pittsburgh Union Progress highlighting our work to help the folx who help the cats and critters. The pantry is a labor of love for her, named in memory of her lifelong friend John Ruffing, a West Mifflin resident and veterinarian who […]

Being programmed as a child didn’t quite destroy me

Sue Kerr as a child

CN: grooming, sexual violence, family secrets, cults, programmed,mental health, trauma As a child, I was programmed (or groomed) by my paternal grandmonster. He was a serial predator whose violent behavior was protected by the family. It is a horrific multi-generational story, one I am determined to expose to the light of day in order to […]

Donate Your Nativity Set To Protect Trans Kids

Holiday nativity scene

Earlier, I wrote a post about my non-traditional holiday decorations, including my Nativity scene focused on protecting trans kids. I was asked to create a clarion call to share specifics. If you have a new or gently used Nativity scenes, complete or partial, please consider donating it to my ongoing outdoor Nativity. My intent is […]

Donate Your Nativity and Holiday Decorations to Make a Statement

Holiday nativity scene

In 2022, I decided to create a Nativity Scene also known as a créche in front of my home. The objective was to raise awareness of Pittsburgh LGBTQ Charities projects. People stopped. Back up a bit to 2019. My friend Sarah gifted me with a large plastic Jesus, Mary, and Joseph outdoor set. She had […]

Call me anytime, on the line

My voicemail can handle about three messages before it is full. I am frequently being told “Your inbox is full” or “Delete some messages” or some such advice. I try hard to stay on top of the three spam messages that inevitably fill those slots, but I’m only human. The rest of the voicemail slots? […]

Ten Holiday Traditions on My List for 2024

I expect the winter holidays will be a little challenging. Not as raw as last year, perhaps more insistent on looking forward. So I made a list of traditions, new and old, and already invited friends to join me. I have no one with whom I’ll exchange gifts. Of course I’ll gift to my nephews, […]

Hush (a rewrite)

NaBloPoMo

Its anxiety, my old friendYou’ve come to sit with me againBecause a feeling softly does creepGrabbing hold while I cannot sleepAnd the belief that was programmed in my brainStill remainsWithin the hush of silence In childhood years I walked aloneSlipping into a silent homeWatching other families from afarMy door to comfort was ajarWhen my heart […]