“Five Nights at Freddy’s Is this where you want to be?

I’m on my own for the next five days – just me and the cats. And the groundhogs. Raccoons. Possum.  A few noisy neighbors. Today, I had therapy, followed by a turkey sandwich piled high with lettuce. When I got up to get a napkin, Coco – the turkey obsessed demon – dragged it onto […]

Has My Tunnel Vision About Blogging All Of These Years Contributed To The Erosion Of My Relationship and Marriage?

This blog isn’t exactly a diary or journal. I do share a lot of my life, at least the interesting parts. At the very least, the interesting to me parts. It is 10:32 on a Saturday night in September. Earlier today, I wrestled some cat food bags and did the dishes. Then I had a […]

Here’s the Truth About Holidays After a Divorce

It is a crisp autumish Sunday afternoon this August 31 in the year 2025. Tomorrow is Labor Day. I did have plans for a project that fell through, so I am left to my own devices. Chores, laundry, nap. In the before-times, three day holiday weekends usually included housework, a project, and – this is […]

How to cope with relationship trauma and recovery

It feels important to acknowledge this day, this anniversary of a terrible series of events two years ago that upended my life forever. You can read the details here. The details matter, of course, but at the same time – it is today that matters. My due process rights were violated. I was homeless for […]

The Real Reason I’ve Been Blogging for 20 Years

Aun Nppl;et from niblings circa 2019

If you had asked me last year or even last week to specify my blog audience, I would have said “the LGBTQ community” or “white cisgender people who need to read this” or some such statement. Those things are true, but they are not quite complete. I am writing this blog for my six niblings […]

Brian Wilson, Love, Mercy, and What God Only Knows

“I may not always love you” As I move through the transformation of a divorce, I am humbled that I can look back at the past 20+ years and find those exquisite aching moments of happiness, joy, and beauty. Music is a language my spouse shared with me. She helped me level up from pop […]

The Easter Five Tulips Bloomed Instead of Just One

For years, one little tulip would bloom in the backyard, between the compost bin and the cat feeding station. We’ve tried to remember it’s origin. I thought a family funeral, but my blog archives proved otherwise – they were a condolence gift in March 2008 after the death of our beloved dog Mona. She had […]

The First Anniversary of My Father’s Death

Today marks one year since my father, my Dad, died. He was 83 years old. I don’t know what to say, but it feels important to mark this day. Part of me wants to share anecdotes about him,the good memories and the funny stories. Another part of me wants to continue pointing out his traumas […]

Showing Up for the Big Show

Sunday, my youngest nephew, E, made his theatrical debute in Legally Blonde, JR. He played the villainous law professor. The evening show curtain opened at 6 PM. I had seated myself with his mom’s, turning off phone alerts. So it was only after the show that I found this text from him. 2 minutes after […]

On this third anniversary of my Mum’s death, I hope she is protected in Heaven

JIm Pryor

It doesn’t hurt this year. Not in the way her absence from this world ricocheted through my mind and heart the past two years. I realize I write about with so much sadness. Let’s try something new this year. And whatever sadness I feel is mitigated by knowing she is safe. Hopefully, she’s safe in […]