A slow blink from a cat is a well-documented feline behavior that signifies they feel safe, comfortable, and not threatened in your presence.
Tough conversation with my lawyer today, reminding me how perilously close I am to being homeless. Not new information. But for the remainder of the day it was staring me in the face and not blinking.
I was shaken. So I used my tools to process both my feelings and my situation. My process includes writing drafts that will never be published, reaching out to friends, and not making big decisions. Plus, hydrating. And then a two hour lecture on the ‘Hidden Histories of Rebellion in the United States.’
I’m not going to break. I’m not giving into my underlying terror about poverty and homelessness. Changing my values and my way of walking through each day is not happening. A deck stacked against me is nothing new. There’s always a deck.
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Today, I called Giant Eagle to ask why the online system for free delivery (in food desert neighborhoods) was not working. A very nice customer service rep did not have an answer, so he put me on hold a few times to find that answer. He was able to find out how the free delivery system changed. I explained how the website did not reflect that change. He put me on hold again, got some more answers, and we ended the call with a short-term fix and a promise that Giant Eagle would be fixing their website.
It was one of those moments where I got my needs met and got some systemic changes working. If you live in one of the GE designated food desert areas and need clarity about free delivery, reach out to me.
That’s who I want to be. Taking care of me and others. Working with someone trying to help. It is a small matter, but if we all worked on the small matters – we could do a lot of good. Addressing free access to groceries could do a lot of good for people who can’t readily go to the store to shop for their households. In these times.
I am not going to break.
Instead, I am staring back. With a slow blink.
