Anxiety Ruined My Chance To Meet Damon Young

Damon Young

It’s a beautiful sunny spring day here in Pittsburgh. Chilly, but I can get away with leggings and a light cardigan. I’m  sitting in the parking lot of my therapist’s office, listening to the oldies station and trying to soak up some sunshine – to feel some fragment of joy. I feel only misery. Yes, […]

Anxiety Doesn’t Always Win

Anxiety Doesn’t Always Win

I am seated at a table, two magazines clutched in my hand. I put my bag next to my chair and carefully stack the magazines on the empty table. Deep breath. The aroma of coffee fills my senses. The space is pretty empty, so it would simple for me to approach the counter to order […]

Celebrating Social Anxiety

Social Anxiety

There’s a grey area between social butterfly and hiding under the covers in your pajamas avoidance. When I bring up my social anxiety with casual friends, I get some interesting – if gentle – pushback. I certainly *do* a lot of things, especially with Ledcat. But I avoid many, many more things because they are […]

Allowing Anxiety to Derail Me Is the Worst Case Scenario

Finding Vivian Maier

Of all the awful possibilities, what’s the worst possible thing that could happen to you today? Now this is an interesting question during Mental Health Month. Some folks can provide a list of things that cause anxiety and others just have a general sense of dread. Setting aside the loss of a loved one, the […]

I Need Sunshine. Help Me Furnish My Cattic Lounge

I’ve been back in my home for 43 days now. The best part has been reuniting with my cats, both household and the colony cats. They seem happy to see me. I’ve been rearranging their spaces and firming up their routines. I added several anti-axiety protocols to help them adjust to my return. However, I […]

Watch! Two Videos of My Black Cats of TikTok

First video is the brothers Stefano DiMera and Spencer Cassadine (yes, their mother is named Helena Cassadine) goofing around. They will be five years old in October. @pghlesbianblog our sweet babies #cat #cats #catsoftiktok #blackcat #brothers #siblings #rescue #love #fyp #share #video #Kodaline #growingup #dinner #food #catlover #catholic #catlady #catvideo #cute #sweet #babiesoftiktok #Newpost #tnr […]

Why Was Minnesota Trans Woman Savannah Williams Brutally Murdered?

Trans Woman Savannah Williams

Content Note: this post shares horrifying and brutal details about the murder of a trans woman of color in Minnesota. Read with care. A brutal execution claimed the life of a 38 year old Indigenous Latina trans woman in St Paul, Minnesota. Savannah Ryan Williams was shot point blank after she allegedly had mutual sexual […]

How Discovering My Superpowers Gave Me True Courage

I’ve been watching a lot of superhero/fantasy tv with my nephew, leading me to consider my preferred superpowers. Yes, superpowers. I have two well-worn responses to that query. First, I have excellent peripheral vision because my eyes protrude, known as exothalmia. One of those eyes is lazy and wasn’t properly treated in childhood so I […]

The Year Without a Birthday Card

Tomorrow, I’ll celebrate my birthday – I’m turning 53. No Birthday Cards This Year It dawned on me yesterday that I had not received a birthday card. Then it sunk in that the people who sent me cards each year have opted out of my life this year – my wife, her mother, and a […]

It is Hard to Get The Feeling and Sounds of Being Handcuffed Out of My Mind

Two pairs of handcuffs

35 days ago, I was handcuffed into a police cruiser under an invalid civil commitment warrant. I was only detained for four hours, but does that matter? Denying me my civil liberties – my actual liberty – for any period of time without just cause or due process is an affront to democracy. I am […]